I've got my big girl pants on now!!!!

What a month its been...Ben and I have been dipping our toes in the housing market to see if we can find a great deal that would be worth jumping in for. Well, we went and looked at some homes yesterday and after putting my big girl pants on for the first time, we are planning on making an offer on one of them. It's a 5 bed/4 bath house in Eagle Mountain. It's almost 2400 sq. feet and its on a short sale so its only 135,000. We're trying to keep our payments low because we don't want to be stuck with a crippling mortgage if Ben were to lose his job. We've seen too many friends laid off with no warning and its always looming in the back of my mind.

I was talking to Liz yesterday and told her that the only reservations we had was the location. But after some further discussion, Ben and I decided that we were close enough for him to carpool to work with some friends and it also makes him eligible for the $300 gas allowance at work. So even though its not any closer to family, its closer to some friends and it seems like it would be a great opportunity for us. Since its a short sale, there's a good possibility that we won't hear anything for a while, but we'll see what happens. For me to make such a big decision and not feel crazy is a big thing....I guess this is what it feels like to be a grown up.

update from last weeks post!

Ok, so for Steve and Jayme, I'm fine....I promise. Last week was the peak of a very long and drawn out month at our house. I was coming off a three week period where I had 3 sick kids and had only left my house 3 times. I was overwhelmed and just sick and tired of being up here with no one to talk to.

Like I said, putting my thoughts to words is very theraputic for me and I woke up the next morning feeling much better. I finally decided that I'm not going to be so passive about everything. I'm not going to leave invitations open ended any more. If I want to go shopping, I'm going to say " I'm going this day, and this time. Do you want to come. " Where I am so isolated from everything, I can't keep working my schedule around other people. I can't keep myself cooped up in the house. It's not fun, and its definitely not something I can take too much of.

Ben and I are getting a membership to our Fitness and Aquatic center and I'll be going every other day to lift weights or work out there. That will be a much needed out for me. Some alone time to clear my head and get in shape. And who knows, maybe I'll meet some volleyball players in the mean time. All I know is that actually going outside with no coat on this weekend was so rejuvinating for me! To feel the sun and not be freezing was long overdue. I love the snow, but I'm so ready for it to be gone. I'm ready for spring....bring it on!